Pure green by mariodemarzi
I hate those people who put you in awkward or controversial situations and expect you to be into it as much as them.
Wednesday we finally were intimate since December last year. Yip, 4months without intercourse! But…. Only after he talked with his cousin.
Tonight we got frisky and quite a lot happened. I’ll get to that in a moment. Tonight he pushed me past insanity. We started off very good & then when I changed into the position we “always” do, the one he “loves” - he went cold turkey. Maybe it’s all my imagination - but it seems as if there more to it.
Then he blamed it on him being tired.
I don’t know what to do. My greatest enemy is my mind fixating fears and forming ideas.
I so desperately want to be intimate with him. And so many times do I try! Through touching him, soaping him up, walking naked. Putting his hand on my breast whilst watching tv, the list goes on and on. He turns away, laughs me off… He he he he, (walks-away) always an excuse.
Why is it only that we have sex on his terms? And the last time he was so eager to initiate - was with Juan, and now with Christelle.
I will just never be his number one.